First day of fasting done! I spent the whole day looking at the screens. The big one, or the small ones. But Mama only allows me to watch 4/5 channels-Oasis, Alhijrah,tv9, Oasis and Astro Ramadhan =]. And, Second terawih done (not so perfectly).
Haha. I went to the mosque for the terawih and felt like fainting on my 5th rakaah. I decided I shouldn't do any drama and step off the saf when my head felt light and went to the back of the mosque and seat with a little kid. She looked at me weirdly. Haha. After that I went back to my place to see my sister no longer there. So I step off the saf again to peek at her parked car, in case she's waiting for me. But she's not there. So I went back to saf and prayed my 3rd salam. Only after that I see my sister and we discussed what to do-going home or staying for witr. Finally we stayed because I haven't finish my 4th salam and went back to saf. Do you know how troublesome/confused was I? I bet all the mak cik makcik whom I walked in front were cursing at me because I was distracting them (heh tak baik berburuk sangka). Truly, I'm very sorry for the trouble/distractions I caused. and I deeply embarrassed for my action. But that was way better than fainting on my spot and causing dramas.
Anywaay, its embarrassing that me, young and healthy didn't get to finish my terawih (malu menyorok bawah meja) while old mak cik and small kids doing just fine. Must be the headache.. or the stomach.
When I'm about to go 'black', the thought of "am I dying" crossed my mind. You never know buddeh when your time is up. That thought sent shivers down the spine. I owe apologize to some people, I'm not yet graduate, I want to go places and...
But when the time is up, its the time. So long that I'd forgotten how close the death with me. What happened tonight was a reminder.
Although I humiliated myself in front of the public (memang tak boleh cari mak mertua di kawasan itu laaa) what happened had happened. So lets brace up and get ready for tomorrow?! kekekeke
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1 comment:
where did you go for tarawikh huh?
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